For some it is a dangerous place because they aren’t able to open their minds to see a different perspective of life nor do they listen to their instinct, a matter of survival in that world. It’s the whole theory of being told the color before you is green when in reality it is red. People tend to accept and perceive things as they are told to. That is where some of the beauty of the world is lost. I had lived my entire childhood and the beginning of my young adult life in a society of what others told me it should be, knowing inside that all I wanted to do was find out for myself what the world is. I knew it had to be different than how it was being told to me so I left for Texas to figure it out. I abandoned all the “programming” I had been raised with, threw everything I had been taught out the window, and started over from scratch using life experiences to prove to me what the world is truly like. I sought out people who were different than I, tried things that scared most people, went places your mother told you not to go, befriended those that had been out casted, and forced myself to be non-judgmental. It wasn’t always easy, and yeah I learned some lessons the hard way but the most important thing I learned in the process is that all of us are put here for a purpose. We each have different purposes in life and who am I to say that one persons purpose is any less or any more important than my own. You really have to take a step away from society, away from yourself and listen to that which people have to say. Try to look at it from their life experiences. What’s the old saying… Don’t judge others until you have walked a mile in their shoes. Things begin to make much more sense when you are able to achieve this and you begin to realize all of the strange beauty that is around you. Beauty shows no discrimination, no judgment, no prejudice, and no hatred. It touches each of us in it’s own way. It is the mark that it leaves which is sometimes challenging to see. It’s a very hard thing to be non-judgmental, especially in our Puritan based society, but something that once you let go of it the reward your life will be blessed with is insurmountable. I have made loyal friends in the most unlikely of people, had life changing experiences in the most unlikely of places, and have become better for knowing the people who truly make this planet worthwhile. I was doing an interview a few years ago for Hustler magazine when the gentleman who was interviewing me said, “When did you snap?” I couldn’t help but laugh at his question. I said, “What do you mean?” His reply, “When did you lose it because someone like you with your background doesn’t just pick up one day and decided to go into porn.” The funny thing is I don’t see it as “snapping” or “loosing it”, I see it as I have found myself in the purist means of who I am. For me there was no other way to find it. Most people never test themselves to these levels so they spend much of their life being afraid and/or not knowing who they are. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t believe everyone should surf the outer edge of society, it can be a very dangerous place especially if you aren’t in tune with your instincts. There are a lot of predators in these arenas and too many lambs in society, but for those who are up to the challenge, want to push themselves, and hone their instincts it’s a great survival of the fittest testing ground.